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My Public Defender-Ness

Public defense isn't my 9-5; it's my identity. Public defense fills my subconscious, my sleep consumed nightly by dreams and nightmares of clients, courtrooms and casefiles. Public defense is the ink that fills my pages, the characters that litter my social media. Public defense is my companion on flights, my reading material on vacation.
Public defense isn't my 9-5; it's my identity.

Public defense fills my subconscious, my sleep consumed nightly by dreams and nightmares of clients, courtrooms and casefiles.

Public defense is the ink that fills my pages, the characters that litter my social media.

Public defense is my companion on flights, my reading material on vacation.

Public defense is my TV guide, crime shows and movies regularly in my mental queue.

Public defense is my bond, my connection in heart and compassion with the stonecatchers by my side.

Public defense is my view of humanity, my lens to the turmoil, complications and layers of human beings, including myself.

Public defense is my reminder that we were once all children, that we are more than our worst moments.

Public defense is my kinship to my fellow man, for there go I but for the grace of God.

Public defense is the collection of my clients' stories, the unseen conversations in jailhouse rooms.

Public defense is my clients' trust, a piece of each of them tucked into a previously undiscovered reservoir of my being.

Public defense is my resistance, my push back against tyranny.

Public defense is my breathing life into the constitution, my declaration of citizenship and patriotism.

Public defense is my parents' spirit of service embodied, my homage to Malcolm.

Public defense is a culmination of my parents' journey and diligence, my taking their next steps forward.

Public defense is late law school nights, the LSAT, the bar exam, interviews, internships, my business card a seal of passage.

Public defense is my gift to my sons, my humble attempt at modeling courage, steadfastness and a passion for justice.

Public defense is my expression of faith, a manifestation of oft repeated but rarely practiced dogma.

Public defense is my confidence, my value to this country, to this community, to my family.

Without it, I become unrecognizable in the mirror.

Without it, I become ordinary and unremarkable as stories are traded at Thanksgiving dinner.

Without it, I offer little to the narrative and trajectory of this nation.

Without it, I become an invisible, mundane member of the flock.

Public defense is me.  

Dear God, sustain it (and me).

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